Back To The Drawing Board...?

I guess so...two days is all it took to make the past 21 years disappear. And one sentence put it all back into perspective.

It's better to know now...I know that. I think it just could have been put better.

I'm just sick of sitting on the sidelines and watching everyone else have something. It all seems so out of reach and so unrealistic in my life....just the idea that someone could find my silly ways beautiful...seems ridiculous.

This didn't make me feel this way...I have pretty much felt this way for as long as I can remember. I just never put it in words.